Fire

When the anger begins to set in, I feel as if the weight of the world rests on my shoulders.

It burns me with the fire of a thousand suns

I have to lash out

Were you there, standing behind me? Hoping for the best...expecting the worst?

You’ve been gone so long, I can scarcely remember the details of your face

In a time when acceptance was the only thing that could put out the fire, all you had was more fuel for the flame.

One day I’ll forget but now that you’ve shown your true colors

Your bright, hypocritical colors

I don’t find it necessary to forgive

I was there every time you were lost and unsure of yourself

A helping hand when those closest to you had let go

Yet you walked out on me when I was too scared to find my own way

Hating you keeps me going

The horrible things you said are a constant reminder

I’ll never stop what I’m doing to be better

There are things you’ve accomplished that I never will

Only because I’ve never wanted to

Blessings in disguise come at strange times

And the light of the truth often shines when you 

least expect it

It Begins

My mind wanders too far for me to catch up

The world seems so foggy

I can’t find my thoughts

I struggle just to collect the memories

That were left behind

Like a whisper on the breeze

When I’m wide awake

As the whole world sleeps

I feel no mercy from the darkness at my feet

I hear the laughter behind me

The pain only I can see

Is it too late for me to start again?

I must believe that every now and then

I can’t leave behind all that I know

So the world can learn

What it should have known long ago

I’ve never come this close to the fire

The truth is all that I desire

Pick myself up to knock you back down

If you only knew how I called for your help

Without making a sound

Acceptance

She grew her auburn hair long, like a waterfall down her back.
She had dreams that it would mean so much more. 

While her hair was truly lovely, she still felt inadequate among the crowd.

Her weight was more than she could stand and she felt her age creeping up on her.

What she sees with her striking hazel eyes is shame mixed with the years of pain she had to endure.

Perhaps if the day would come when she would feel beautiful once again, she could let go of all that has held her back.

Her loving husband found her beautiful, but she never
felt she deserved the admiration.

During moments alone, she took a long look in the mirror and dissolved into tears. 

Perhaps if she hadn't heard so much cruelty growing up, the negativity wouldn't be so easy to believe.

Deep down inside, she hated herself and her body
no matter what progress she made.

She was frightened there would never be acceptance, happiness...pride.

Maybe one day she could erase the pain of all those years, instead of collapsing under the shadow of fear.

More Questions

Do you bask in the glory of a life untainted
or do you brace yourself for the next catastrophe

Will the other shoe drop before you've truly
succeeded 
Or can your expectations satisfy your needs

If you stand by and watch as your world slowly
crumbles
Are you to blame as your life becomes a pile of
rubble.

Inspiration wakes your inner flame
Until you feel that sense of fear
And you're burned by the shame

Have you faced more pain than should
ever be allowed
Or were you always meant to stand out from
the crowd

Shout it from the rooftops they'll tell you
Until you've fallen under their spell

And in the end, you can only glance at the image
in the mirror
As you wonder what life could have been like
without all of these fears